I’ve been wondering lately how it is that I am where I am doing what I’m doing. As a child and even a young adult, I was intensely shy. I was scared of my own shadow and just about everything else. I was the little girl in class who never put up her hand to offer an answer and who, even when she knew the correct answer, practically trembled when the teacher called on her. I was the little girl who once stood paralysed at a busy street crossing on the way home from school until a lady actually came out of her house and escorted me across!
Looking back, it seems a bit bizarre that I chose teaching as a career. Me, who was terrified of getting up in front of people! It’s also a wonder that I didn’t give up that dream during my first year of university when one of my professors told me that I should choose a different profession. I was too soft spoken, I was told. I’d never be able to command the attention of a classroom full of students. I might have been shy but I was also stubborn and I was determined to prove him wrong. I realize now that long before I knew him, God designed me to be a teacher. It was part of his plan for my life and I’m sure that my many years in front of a classroom helped bring me to the place I now find myself.
Somewhere along the way, I also developed an interest in drama and I know that my forays onto the stage helped push me beyond my initial shyness. At first, stepping out onto the stage was a giant leap outside my comfort zone but when I discovered how much fun it was, I was hooked! On the stage, shy introverted me became someone else, someone who could do things I would never do like appear in public in a micro mini jungle girl costume!
Stepping outside my comfort zone; that was the key. As my blogging friend, Donloree wrote recently, “So I am going to be afraid, but do it anyways. It means I am doing something new, bold, and exciting and maybe just possibly changing the world.” I couldn’t have said it better myself.
So the little girl who was afraid to cross the street by herself has crossed the world. She isn’t always as confident as she might seem but she’s learned to push herself out on life’s stage and grab onto all it has to offer.
If I can do it, anyone can!